So as I'm sitting at my desk bright and early this morning, my husband Brian comes in from p.t., to find me hanging up the phone and laughing.
Brian..."What's so funny"
I reply- nothing other than Aaron was off to school bright and early and it so happens they don't go back until tomorrow.
Brian...."Your kidding, right?"
Me-nope
We both die laughing!
Then he proceeds to ask me what was my New Year's Resolution. OMG, what is it about resolutions? The big loaded question with ton's of pressure behind it. Do I diet, do I volunteer more, cook more, spend more time with family, take up a new hobby.......WHAT?????? Each year I go thru this whole process of what to do and always fall short. My guns are loaded full of determination that this is the year I'm going to do whatever lucky task it is I've decided to take on or change.
IN WALKS THE KID
Kid.....Mom there's no school today and the teachers were looking at me funny. Man I could have slept in late, you owe me BIG time. I just fluff in response. I'm still in the milky way like some astronauts discarded piss just floating thru time. Just keep swimming, just keep swimming. I noticed that ACS on Schofield Barracks has started a new Biggest Loser contest, targeted towards all of us fondly known as "chunks of love". If I've said it once, I've said it 1,000 times. Sweating to the oldies is not my cup of tea, so don't see that happening anytime soon. I did get two new cookbooks but really how many new recipes can you make your family suffer thru in a week before they start to throw down the gauntlets of mutiny? Hmn, next please!
WHAT'S WITH THE DAMN DOGS?
Seriously Bishop, must you lick your balls or the lack there of since I did have those puppies cut off long ago, right in front of me. What ever was there is long, long gone. Give it a rest! There's a girl in the room. Shish.
I could plant some new plants if for no other reason than to give Brian something else to complain about. I do love gardening, and that doesn't have to be a resolution, but it would have to wait until next week as I've got a lot going on this week with the Hui Thrift shop. Looks like Brian's been saved for at least a few days.
WHERE DID THE KID GO?
Ever notice when you need something done, not a single kid to be found, but holler lunch time and your surrounded by kids you don't even know. I mean I've tried to childproof my house, but somehow they keep getting in. What's up with that! Now I need just mine to come empty this damn trash. Figures! I'll hide come dinner time. Take that sucker......
I did say I was going to dedicate some me time to my inner diva. That one I'm gonna stick to cause I could use a little pampering but is that really a resolution or just a goal? Groan, oh the pressure! Look to just keep it simple whatever happens in 2011 will happen. If my fat ass loses weight...then I'll go shopping. If I cook 7 new recipes per week and my crew bails to Burger King...hope the door doesn't hit them in the ass on the way out. Good luck to the chunks of love in the Biggest Loser challenges. Oreo's and deodorant are on sale at the commissary, stock up on that secret stash now. Dog still licking.....lost cause. Kid still missing-mom on strike starting asap.
Who said hindsight is 20/20?
Monday, January 3, 2011
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Pointing that finger at the man in the mirror
1st let me start off by saying Happy New Year! We had a huge celebration at our house with friends and family, and a good time had by all. We definitely missed those who couldn't attend but know we will see them soon in the new year!
So today I'm actually on a rant. I come from a huge family whom I love dearly, and miss them even more but at times I literally want to choke the hell out of some of them. I'm pretty sure the feeling is mutual. We're a very vocal and opinionated group, but that's what we all love about each other. Anyway it was a post that one of my cousins had made on a status update that set me on my topic for today.
At this point in time in my life, I am one of the least judgemental people I know but it took me 44 years to reach this point too. I get angry, frustrated and down right pissed off to the point I speak my mind, but I do not judge people or look down on them. You'll just have to take my word on it when I say I of all people have no RIGHT to do this anyone. After making my own share of lifetime mistakes and bad judgement call my motto for years has been if I don't pay your light bill then anything I say or do doesn't matter and the same goes in return. I've made a lot of decisions based on emotions and anger being the biggest influence of them all. Sadly because of my experiences I am one of those people that can completely disconnect from my emotions, and that's not always a good thing. In my past I've given new meaning to the phrase cold hearted bitch, but you know what I know this, I'm not ashamed, nor do I try to hide from it....I've grown from it. Simply I am who I am and each day with every thing in me I try to be a better person and give back 100% plus 100% more. No one in this world can punish me for the things I've done anymore or worse than what I punish myself for every SINGLE day. I only connect with people, even my closet friends on levels that I chose because that is my safety or comfort zone. Take it for what it is.
Anyways, didn't mean to go into such depth, my point of the little insight was the beginning of my rant and sorry I'll never go into depth the reasons of my emotional scarring or the pain of my childhood, much to my doctors demise. Some things are just better kept buried where they belong. Reason of rant! People who have the nerve or audacity if you will to point their finger in judgement of others when nothing in their own life is right, socially correct or a foundation for such moral judgement. Nothing pisses me off more. Well except the fact when you call a hypocrite out, they again have the nerve to act offended or clueless as to why your calling them out. LOL your joking right, is this me being judgemental or sarcastic? Throw your stones, do what you will but throw them in the right direction. Your own. This is the oldest lesson in the bible. Some would say me ranting about this issue is being judgemental or finding others guilty. Perhaps so, but I'm ranting on paper. I didn't spit on your neck and try to tell you it's raining.
Ugh c'mon people. Seriously, again you don't pay my light bill so truly I don't care what you do, much less say, but when you update, print, or gossip about others and the things you feel they are doing wrong...make sure your own backyard is raked first. And for Gods sake have some pride, dignity or respect about yourself if nothing else. Millions of women in history did not go thru their experiences just so you could act like mindless idiots. I'm all about empowering everyone and we've all acted like idiots before; some just really abuse the privilege. Today, perhaps I should have been medicated!
Peace.
So today I'm actually on a rant. I come from a huge family whom I love dearly, and miss them even more but at times I literally want to choke the hell out of some of them. I'm pretty sure the feeling is mutual. We're a very vocal and opinionated group, but that's what we all love about each other. Anyway it was a post that one of my cousins had made on a status update that set me on my topic for today.
At this point in time in my life, I am one of the least judgemental people I know but it took me 44 years to reach this point too. I get angry, frustrated and down right pissed off to the point I speak my mind, but I do not judge people or look down on them. You'll just have to take my word on it when I say I of all people have no RIGHT to do this anyone. After making my own share of lifetime mistakes and bad judgement call my motto for years has been if I don't pay your light bill then anything I say or do doesn't matter and the same goes in return. I've made a lot of decisions based on emotions and anger being the biggest influence of them all. Sadly because of my experiences I am one of those people that can completely disconnect from my emotions, and that's not always a good thing. In my past I've given new meaning to the phrase cold hearted bitch, but you know what I know this, I'm not ashamed, nor do I try to hide from it....I've grown from it. Simply I am who I am and each day with every thing in me I try to be a better person and give back 100% plus 100% more. No one in this world can punish me for the things I've done anymore or worse than what I punish myself for every SINGLE day. I only connect with people, even my closet friends on levels that I chose because that is my safety or comfort zone. Take it for what it is.
Anyways, didn't mean to go into such depth, my point of the little insight was the beginning of my rant and sorry I'll never go into depth the reasons of my emotional scarring or the pain of my childhood, much to my doctors demise. Some things are just better kept buried where they belong. Reason of rant! People who have the nerve or audacity if you will to point their finger in judgement of others when nothing in their own life is right, socially correct or a foundation for such moral judgement. Nothing pisses me off more. Well except the fact when you call a hypocrite out, they again have the nerve to act offended or clueless as to why your calling them out. LOL your joking right, is this me being judgemental or sarcastic? Throw your stones, do what you will but throw them in the right direction. Your own. This is the oldest lesson in the bible. Some would say me ranting about this issue is being judgemental or finding others guilty. Perhaps so, but I'm ranting on paper. I didn't spit on your neck and try to tell you it's raining.
Ugh c'mon people. Seriously, again you don't pay my light bill so truly I don't care what you do, much less say, but when you update, print, or gossip about others and the things you feel they are doing wrong...make sure your own backyard is raked first. And for Gods sake have some pride, dignity or respect about yourself if nothing else. Millions of women in history did not go thru their experiences just so you could act like mindless idiots. I'm all about empowering everyone and we've all acted like idiots before; some just really abuse the privilege. Today, perhaps I should have been medicated!
Peace.
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